Today I was supposed to have a baby
“Today I was supposed to have a baby.
Our 3rd pregnancy left me with another due date coming & going with no baby.
I have a million different emotions today.
Sad. Angry. Confused. Annoyed. Empty. Guarded.
That was the pregnancy that lasted 13 weeks, but it was never viable. It included so many doctors appointments, ultrasounds weekly, slow rising Beta HCG’s, a hospital admission, 2 separate rounds of Methotrexate (chemotherapy drug), to medically terminate what turned into an ectopic pregnancy of unknown location. End result, emergency surgery on July 31st to remove the still growing fetus & my right Fallopian tube, where he/she was all along to save my life.
That pregnancy started out as somewhat hopeful (but always guarding my heart), and quickly turned into a nightmare and a hellish 2 months that has left a road of PTSD.
So here I am, sitting here, a 3rd due date, and no baby here or soon to be here.” -@bringonbabybaganha
Yesterday was Bereaved Mother’s Day, and we’re sending love to every mother who holds a child in their heart instead of their arms. 💖
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